My Summer Wishlist

With summer comes new, bright, fun, summer clothes and things. And I LOVE summer clothes. :) Plus, my birthday is in Summer, so I am allowed to have a wishlist! :D

1. Bathing Suit- okay...technically this isn't a "wishlist" item since I just bought this swimsuit this weekend. But, I wanted to show it off. :) I got it in black though.

2. Shoes!!! These are just something that I saw and thought were really cute. Usually I get a pair or wedges or heels for summer, but these sandals are so cute!

3. Purse- Every summer and winter I get a new purse. I have a million of them..but they are my weakness. That and everything green. So, it's only appropriate that the purse I want this summer is ..GREEN !! :) I can't decide between the original floral or the geo moss on the same site.

4. Ipod- Since I graduate in May I get a graduation present from the rents (thanks mom and dad. i love you) And I have decided to finally get an IPod. After years and years of not ready for the change in technology I figured it would be a very helpful thing to have. I will never stop using my cd's though...lol. I am about 90% sure that I want the IPod Classic. It holds 30,000 songs and is cheaper than the IPod Touch, which holds less. I decided I didn't really need the screen. I hope I don't change my mind because this one is about $100 less than the Touch.

Well, that is most of the things I want this summer. lol.

Only Because I was Curious

So I haven't read a book since Christmas break. And I have a really easy semester so I was planning on reading more this semester. There are so many books I have in my mental list that I want to read. But the problem is that I have to be in a mood for a certain book. Like, I was going to start ready Catch 22 (for the third time). Everytime I start it my workload gets too heavy and I have to stop. But then I was talking to Caroline about books and she said she had the Twilight Series if I wanted to partake in the band wagon. Hm...

The truth is...I've judged EVERY single silly girl who becomes obsessed with those books. I had not intended to start reading them. But...it sounded a lot more lighthearted and easier to read than Catch 22. Plus, I am semi-curious to see if this Edward Cullen guy is as dreamy and perfect as he is made out to be. So...I read the first book. I was very skeptical...but I read it nonetheless. I still have three more to go...but I can tell you a few conclusions I have come to.

This should NEVER ever be compared to Harry Potter. It's not even as good as one chapter of any Harry Potter book. The writing is just awful, in my opinion. It's like she's trying to hard to be a "good writer". And it's like a sappy romance novel for teenage girls. The main character, Bella, is not that interesting of a character and if frustrates me that Edward Cullen is so fascinated by her. I feel like she doesn't deserve him. And he is as charming as people make him out to be I suppose. But it's a little too cheesy for my taste. Edward and the whole book really. I'd rather have Mr. Knightly any day. Mainly, I'm reading it because it's an interesting enough story. Vampires and what not. Plus, it's a fast read. I mean, it's not a series I'll ever read a second time, but for now it's okay. I'm just not as into it as other people are. And I just don't understand why he's so against turning her into a Vampire. He's sooo in love with her and wants to be with her "forever" but she's human..she's going to get old..and die. So, I predict that she'll be a vampire by the end of the series.

Anywhen...that's my rant. As you can tell...I don't like the book THAT much. If Harry Potter is a 10 and The Island of the Blue Dolphins is a 1 (because honestly...that is the worst book EVER) then I would rate this a 4 or 5 maybe.

I'm just glad to be back on my reading streak. I'm going to read the other three Twilight books, and then The BFG cause Brittany let me borrow it. I'm super excited cause I haven't read it since like fourth grade! And then who knows what! :)

YAY FOR READING!!%#^

What Makes Me Happy?

Lately I've been really, really excited about graduating from college. I've spent four years here, and 13 years on top of that with kindergarten-high school. I'm just ready to be done with school and homework, and all nighters studying for exams. I like college life, but lately I've just been wanting to skip forward to when I have a job and I'm out of school. I'm ready to "join the real world" and have a set job and set hours. I'm ready to start making money and move on with my life....get an apartment, get a puppy, get an income. It'll actually be a while since I can do those things since 1. I'm living with my parents for a year so that I can 2. finish off my second major by taking two courses at Wooster college and 3. I don't even have a job yet.

This summer I'm working on the island as a bartender again, but when I move back home mid August I'm going to have to find a full time job. And this is what I'm really worried about. For starters, there aren't a ton of places around Loudonville where I could get a job that would make my Theatre Degree useful in. And then, I don't even know what type of job I want because I have no idea what I even want to do with my life. I like designing, I like acting, I like directing, but I don't like one over all the others, or enough to want to do it the rest of my life. I'm stuck. I am an indecisive person as it is, but when it comes to my career I'm completly lost. I guess I'll just take whatever job I can get to start out with. And maybe that will help me narrow down what I actually want to do in life.

It's just...I see my mother and how happy she is teaching kindergarten. She's been doing it for 11 years now but it took her that long to find that that is the job that is perfect for her. The job that makes her happy. And Matt...all through high school and the year after he had NO idea what he wanted to do as a career, and then randomly he started to be a volunter EMT and firefighter and now he loves it. And he's good at it, and it's what makes him happy and it's what he was meant to do. I'm just worried that I'll never find what makes me happy. I wish I knew it now. I mean..I've always wanted to teach, but I don't even know how to go about getting my teaching license or what I would even teach. I can't be a college professor. Too much more schooling than I want to go through or could ever handle, and I don't think I could ever be smart enough to know Greek, Latin, and another language if I wanted to teach Classics. And if I wanted to teach Theatre I'd have to pick a focus...and like I said before, I just can't. I'm just REALLY worried that I won't find a career that makes me genuinely happy, one that I was meant to do.

I can't wait to start living outside of college, and get a job, but it's hard when I know it'll probably just be a job to me. What if it doesn't make me happy and I'm just having to go through it, like college. I want to find what makes me happy but I'm completely oblivious. What if the job I end up doing isn't even remotely related to Theatre or Classics? I mean..honestly...at this point I could end up being/doing anything. Who knows where I'll be in ten years. I haven't the slightest idea. But...trying to figure out that is still very exciting to me. Good thing I'm optimistic!